2010 rewind!!!

2010 has and had been a mixed of bitter sweet, happy and sad, frowning and smiling and lastly twist turning and upsidedown moments…more so it did gave me a lot of things to thank! goodbyes had been said and hellos are still yet to come…i am very hopeful that this 2011 would be a greater and bigger year ahead!


10 SONGS -because im crazy and i have my own world ofcourse i have the weirdest set of songs ever!! haha

10.  CASEY JAMES’  version of DONT, JEALOUS GUY and POWER OF LOVE- i am an American Idol fan since i dont even remember when i did started to get hooked… not the best voice ever heard on stage but i think HE is the best GUITARIST ever stepped on AI so far!!! he got this MAD GUITAR SKILLS which made him so so loveable aside from the fact that he really is a handsome guy!what an angel in disguise!!


09. DANNY GOKEY’s I WILL NOT SAY GOODBYE- i told you im AI fan!!  he got this compassion that really explodes when he sing and that what i love about him…i guess this song is such a heart felt!!



08. DAVID ARCHULETA’s – PARACHUTES AND AIRPLANES, STOMPING THE ROSES- cradle snatcher!! what can i do, he is a sweetheart! i missed my chance again!! he went to PI to promote his album but i did not get the chance to go and see him!! well back to why i love the songs- im a POP baby, i love cute beats and up beat melodies with sweet lyrics…



07. GABE BONDOC’s YOU’RE IT- thanks to my dearst friend moira and my sister dear yang for introducing his songs!! waaahhh…love love love his voice, it was nothing but a breath of fresh air-soothing and sweet!! he is a you tube singer, you can go and check out his site!! he is really good!!



06. LEE DWYZE’s SWEET SERENDIPITY- i love the lyrics, the melody and the beat is quite interesting…knowing that lee sang it makes it even more ear candy…




05. MARCOS HERNANDEZ’ THE WAY IDO- love love love his voice!!he sounds exactly like JC CHASEZ…and the lyrics awww soooooo sweet!




04. ELLIOTT YAMIN’s  , CANT KEEP ON LOVING YOU FROM A DISTANCE, DOORWAY- the greatest singer ever lived!!hahaha, in my own opinion he will forever remain my number 1…you have to hear him sing, you literally wanna die in his arms!!!



03. JASON CASTRO’s THAT’S WHAT IM HERE FOR- the only beautiful man alive (beat that!!) seriously he is…sweet and soothing voice plus anglic face and the way he sing seems like everyday is serenade day!! love the meaning of the song…



02. JASON CASTRO’s YOU ARE- again he sounds just perfect!! the song is quite contemporary by which made even more special…the acoustic version is amazingly fantastic!! he is such an eye and ear candy!!!



01. TRAIN’s MARRY ME-i dont know how to describe this song…if i were a man, i will be singing this song to the girl of my dreams but because im not…if someone will sing this song to me, i wanna melt right there and then! come on! im such a hopeless romantic!!!!




10. DECEMBER 2010- me as PROCTOR (Pentagon and 2010 DECEMBER NLE)- it was a great experience i believe, seeing nursing graduates having their examination right in front of you makes me look back and see my own self to them…some examinees are quite good with instructions while are not and some listen carefully while some are too clumsy. (hay, naitanong ko tuloy sa sarili, if i were to take my examination again will i be able to pass it and get same grade? i hope i could do it again!!) so to all the exminee that i did handle, goodluck and godbless!!


09.  SEPTEMBER 2010- me as NURSE TRAINEE, finally after gazillion years of waiting, i had my chance! it was the longest, happiest and my most fulfilled 3 months ever…my experience was great, i met amazing people, and i learned so many things…thank you OSSAM

08. DECEMBER 2010- me as a GRADUATE- after 3 months of volunteering/training, i got my cerificate!! happy me…

07. NOVEMBER 2010- me with CELEBRANTS- gyp, jak and cha celebrated their birthday…it was a happy event, we are almost perfect (minus mikki)…we had our tugs tougs moment, sing along grande, and eat all you can party!!!

06. DECEMBER 2010- we with PEDIABABIES XMAS PARTY! finally we had our day, we laugh together, we cry together and of course we EAT together…i had my best moments with these guys!! i love them all…

05.AUGUST 2010-me as CHEERLEADER ACES bagged their  13th title in PBA 35th fiesta conference- i was more than a happy momma when they got the championship!!wohooo bel13ve!!!

04. DECEMBER 2010- me as CELEBRANT-ouch!! im a year older again, my own bday celebration. birthdays are always special day to our family-mama cooked some food for the family and we had our lunch together..

03.DECEMBER 2010-me as MOMMY FOR THE DAY- instant babies! me and my sister made our debut as mommies to our 2 nephews…it was a happy event, seeing our two lil boys smile and laugh makes my whole day complete!! i love them both!!


02. MARCH 2010-me as FAN JASON CASTRO LIVE IN MANILA- me and my 2 kabataks finally had our moment to see jason eye to eye and face to face!!! i was able to held his hand and greet him HAPPY BDAY can you believe it!! it was the best day!!

01. DECEMBER 2010- me as a DAUGHTER FAMILY’s TRADITIONAL BIG LUNCH every christmas day…big lunch always makes our christmas complete, we dont celebrate noche buena because we have our own big lunch…perfect with the whole family dining and eating together…i love them!!

so that’s it, my own year end special…til next year!!


pedia babies ^0^,

we are now down to the last wire, its sad i know but at the end of the day i keep seeing myself smiling and happy- i know things wont and will never change “WE ARE FRIENDS RIGHT!!”…

everyone is compiling memories thru video and because im a writer i will do it in a BLOGGER way! now let us start…

time flips so fast that before i knew it, i was at the end of the line but fortunately and luckily i say “i was not alone”- savoring each moments with my BESTmates, my LOVEbuddies and my TRUEfriends… i thought ’twas going be a wild circus play- me juggling around with people whom i barely know but I WAS WRONG… the moment i stepped out of my comfort zone- i felt AT HOME and i was at MY HOME indeed…i never felt like i was obliged to wake-up in the morning drag myself to the watercloset and push myself to dress and finish my 8 hour or 12 hour shift- everyday seems to be a smooth sailing ang calming breeze just brushing over…



individual message: to follow… 🙂 (sa xmas party na, senti mode ko!hahaha…)


i should be waking by now, i should be feeling myself somehow; i should be moving and getting my feet off the ground…but im trapped, slowly falling , tightly chained- untouched but emotionally unbounded…

i should stop, no i must stop but i cant- how could i keep myself from falling apart when all i really want is the other way around…as easy as it seems but it is a lot harder trying to act like “oh so natural” but deep inside “its killing you”…

maybe it is better to be like this- JUST like this…im here and you on the other side- i wont wake myself up, i would drown myself close to death and just continue to be a sweet calm wind brushing towards your cheeks….i wont talk- i’ll just listen…

may 14, 1978– my mom and my dad’s very date!! after 32 years, their relationship remains as blooming  and as fragrant as the cherry blossoms every sakura festival; as bright as the sun- their love never melts even if the heat of the sun was extremely burning; as strong as the hardest steel that even the great ironman cannot break; and lastly as priceless as the finest diamond that even the richest and most famous superstar would never find…that’s how i describe their love with one another, of course their love story wasnt perfect like an old and grayish cinderella story but in my own naked eyes it was nothing but pure magic.

i wish ’em all the happiness and love in the world, and above all many many more anniversaries to come…

to the BEST mama and papa to us…

to the sweetest granpa and granma to tien-tien and mj…


im a self-confessed daddy’s ‘lil girl. i always have great words to write with regards to my ever lovely papa, but come to think of it- i never wrote one for my amazingly wonderful mama…

how will i ever describe her, ok. let me start by saying this- in my 22 years of existence i never woke up not having a very luscious meal waiting on the dining table. she is a kitchen goddess i must say- oh well pretty much that’s the reason why we are all healthy, but on the other side that’s also the reason why i barely and hardly know how to cook! oh god im the worst person you could ever meet when it comes to frying pans, knives and sauteing are concern.

more so, she is a dedicated wife and mother to us..she does all the chores and she does it patiently. frankly she’s been doing all those chores for the past 31 years nearly 32 years in a matter of 7 days! (happy 32nd wedding anniversary!)

she’s a kind of mom that is very transparent-you’ll definitely know when she’s happy, excited, scared, in-doubt and most specially when she’s fury.

sometimes when she gets a ‘lil out of control, i personally dont know if i will start to laugh or just keep quiet-and just absorb everything- well it kinda gets normal for me after 22 years unpredictable ventilating…

kidding aside- mama never fails to amaze me every second and every minute of everyday. she suffered, sacrificed and gave up a lot of things for us- yet she never gets tired of pushing herself to the limit- of loving, serving and just purely giving everything to us…thank you! thanks for everything despite of me being a stubborn daughter you continue to love me. i am not perfect, i know im not, im not even sure if i could keep my promise, but one thing i know for sure- I LOVE YOU and I ALWAYS WILL…



March 18, 2010- probably “the most important date to those eye candy and ear candy fanatics”…and for me really it was “the most memorable, unforgettable and one of the happiest moment of my life!!” what a cloud9 experience… I’ve always been one of his crazy fans way back American Idol days and its always pleasant to hear him sing, nothing has changed- he will always remain my 2nd favorite finalist ever stepped on the idol stage ( of course Elliott Yamin captured my heart 1st)…well he finished the race bagging the 4th spot but it didn’t matter, 2 years have gone long by and even him probably had already slipped that on his mind…back to where i was saying we watched his promotional tour at Trinoma Activity Center…and because we were pretty excited we came really early and mind you the long wait was soooo worth it, we got the chance to be part of the 1st 100 who purchased his EP album and with that, the huge opportunity to meet him, greet him and hug him was in the bag!!! wohooo…. jason castro himself will sign our CD after the show!!!! 

before the show


nice crowd


well while waiting, my sisters and i were talking “hindi yan mapupuno konti lang fans ni jason baka nga tayo lang tatlo”…but we were sooo wrong, the whole stage was set and here comes the pile of people waiting for the gate to open, wow! “hindi lang pala kami, madami palang jason castro fans!!!weheee”… 

pure perfection


 15-20 minutes before the show…there he came lookin’ sooo good wearing super cool “green top with lil accessories” and “blue jeans”…everyone went crazy…”waaahhh jason!!! wooooh!!!” then he said hi and everyone said including us “happy birthday!!”… 


singing hallelujah


the show lasted for not more than an hour probably 45 minutes (even less) but for a super fan like me, it was a cherry on the cake!! i really enjoyed every bit of it…he sang 8 songs- some on his EP album and the 2 defining songs he ever performed on idol stage (somewhere over the rainbow and hallelujah)…i love the part where he sang let’s just fall in love again and he make us sing the chorus part!! he ended his show with a sweet note, the way he sang “hallelujah” was pure perfection! 







he was probably playing with his dreads...:)


after the show, we had that one great chance to actually meet him flesh to flesh and face to face!!! hearing him was a treat, seeing him was a bonus but being able to be in-front of him, shook his hand and had a chance to talk to him was heaven! i can hardly explain it…right now im just a having a little flash back of what had happened i could still smell him ( peeps: he doesnt smell bad at all-well i dont know if  it was mandy’s or if he wears perfume or cologne or maybe his sweat (kidding…) it was really really light and girl-ish in some way…but well enough of his scent… he was really nice “he was really making some effort to have a lil chat to his fans even though the guards were so strict! he remain cool and beautiful… 


cant wait for him to come back!! concert baby!!!

All i want is to break free
i feel like the world is giving the worst in me;
sometimes it seems like its almost over-
but before it turned on its end;
here it comes back again and it’s worst than ever…

Dear god- What do you want from me?
i know you love me, i know you do.
everyday i wake up-feeling and hoping that,
little by little the pain will go away…
the moment will just slipped by-
when will these things come to an end?

i need answer! dear god i need answer
Questions keep rushing through my head;
Am i doing things the wrong way?
because if im doing things not right-
please help me make it right…

im wounded: my knees are hurting and my heart keeps bleeding…
my soul is shattered and I AM BROKEN!
i know i have you beside me- watching me: dressing up my wound,
holding me with your loving arms
and carrying me now that i have FALLEN APART…

slowly im losing my FAITH;
shamelessly im letting you down.
i know you dont want to see me putting my last sword down but please-
i need you now, rescue me…i am gasping.
my Lord, my Savior, my Redeemer, my forever Faithful Father,
my Provider and my Deliverer-LEAD ME HOME